Starting Again

The last post that I uploaded is already 3 years ago, I have not posted anything for such a long until I almost unable to recall back my password.
 "Life is just like a drama" an old quote from one of the drama I had watched if I not mistaken. It sometimes will be smooth and tough this words I had listen for dozens of time but I still couldn't let it go perhaps.

I thought I will stop updating my blog again but after all I still come back here cos I think this is the best place I can express my sadness, worries, frustration and all my negative feeling. Most people will choose to express their feeling in other social media platform Facebook etc. Until today I still does not want to post such a negative aura on my Facebook (maybe I added too many friends and family especially people that I stay with)

There's a feeling that came before back to year 2010 during my college life, when I plan to finish my diploma course alone without making any friends in the campus but I still able to make some friends. These 'friends' firstly treat me very good we learn, eat, hang out together can treat as bestie at that time. I really thankful that I able to make such a good friend by that time. Unfortunately, everything change as time flies. They all start to ignore me and just treat me like a stranger, no is worsen if i use 'stranger'. Sometimes I feel like they boycott me.

Now this feeling come back but not in school is in my company, this person firstly so friendly to me but now like a stranger. She didn't respond although I talking to her.

Sometimes, I just thinking is it really my PROBLEM? Why every time also like this. Is it I had done something irritated her?

I really want to leave this place and going back to the place that familiar with.

Now I a kind lost my direction I didn't even know what I want to do. Leave this place go home or just look for another company as now the currency rate is so attractive.