At first, I not really like this PD. Maybe because of his look, he looks tired, a bit clumsy, too thin. However, I didn't realise that as the time bypass I always waiting for Sunday to come because I know night his program will be aired.
After 2 and a half years passed, I really like him. He is just an intelligent, charismatic guy. He also have a sense of charming(not mentioning his appearance). I will unconsciously will search about his news, feeling sad when he was sick (because his really looks unhealthy).
When he announce that he will be on 1 month leave, I was very happy because finally he get his holiday. During his holiday, there are some rumors said that he will be leaving the show. I was very anxious and worried, worried that couldn't see him anymore.
His company announce that there is another PD will be replacing him after he return and he will be promoted and he no longer participant on site filming due to his health condition. I was in dilemma because I'm feeling happy because he been promoted and he able to get more rest but at the same I'm feel sad because we (fans) no longer see him in the show.
Yesterday heard one news from my one of the sources (prove that is it incorrect), mentioned that he will be leaving the show not even become the producer of the show. I suddenly become emotional feel really sad. My tears really rolled down and I cried as hard as I can. Searching for the latest episode of the show want to watch what he said during the show. But all the website still haven't uploaded. At that time, I feel really anxious.
After watched the latest episode, he confess that he are not leaving the show just won't be coming to the filming set. Then, I only can relieve my feeling.
Hope he will have a better working environment, better rest time, able to find a girlfriend.
PS: We will continue to support the new PD, hope the member will get him a nickname. Il Yong PD fighting~
Monday, August 1, 2016
Saturday, July 23, 2016
The Familiar Feeling
24 July
Actually I forgotten this date for a few year, maybe can't use forget need to use didn't pay much attention on this date as I thought that feeling should be gone. I thought I had let go the thing that related to this date. But obviously I still can't let go. Quite a dumb person, refer to me. I really hope that I will b able to let go the relationship that without any result. I knew that this person won't come to me no matter how and he will get married some day.
23 July 2016,
This date makes all the feeling flow back into my mind, only realize I never let go him before. Although I had done many things to forget him but actually all is effortless. After watching his another half planning all these for him make me reflect myself that actually I had done nothing to him.
So when he hug me for the present, at that moment I really control my tear from rolling down on my cheek. I knew I need to run away from him if not my tear really will flew down a lot and that will be an awkward situation.
Really hope 1 day really can let him go or able to look for a person that really I care about him.
Actually I forgotten this date for a few year, maybe can't use forget need to use didn't pay much attention on this date as I thought that feeling should be gone. I thought I had let go the thing that related to this date. But obviously I still can't let go. Quite a dumb person, refer to me. I really hope that I will b able to let go the relationship that without any result. I knew that this person won't come to me no matter how and he will get married some day.
23 July 2016,
This date makes all the feeling flow back into my mind, only realize I never let go him before. Although I had done many things to forget him but actually all is effortless. After watching his another half planning all these for him make me reflect myself that actually I had done nothing to him.
So when he hug me for the present, at that moment I really control my tear from rolling down on my cheek. I knew I need to run away from him if not my tear really will flew down a lot and that will be an awkward situation.
Really hope 1 day really can let him go or able to look for a person that really I care about him.
Saturday, June 4, 2016
첫번째 한국어로 블로그를 써요
안녕하세요.
셀리나입니다.
오을은, 제가 첫번쩨 한국어로 일기를 해요.
그래서, 안 맞아 단어가 있어요.
아주 최송해오.
어제 날씨가 아주 좋았어요.
한국어수업이 있었어요.
그래서, 아침식사먹고, 버스타고, 학워에 갔어요.
2016년 06월 04일
셀리나입니다.
오을은, 제가 첫번쩨 한국어로 일기를 해요.
그래서, 안 맞아 단어가 있어요.
아주 최송해오.
어제 날씨가 아주 좋았어요.
한국어수업이 있었어요.
그래서, 아침식사먹고, 버스타고, 학워에 갔어요.
2016년 06월 04일
Monday, November 16, 2015
Starting Again
The last post that I uploaded is already 3 years ago, I have not posted anything for such a long until I almost unable to recall back my password.
"Life is just like a drama" an old quote from one of the drama I had watched if I not mistaken. It sometimes will be smooth and tough this words I had listen for dozens of time but I still couldn't let it go perhaps.
I thought I will stop updating my blog again but after all I still come back here cos I think this is the best place I can express my sadness, worries, frustration and all my negative feeling. Most people will choose to express their feeling in other social media platform Facebook etc. Until today I still does not want to post such a negative aura on my Facebook (maybe I added too many friends and family especially people that I stay with)
There's a feeling that came before back to year 2010 during my college life, when I plan to finish my diploma course alone without making any friends in the campus but I still able to make some friends. These 'friends' firstly treat me very good we learn, eat, hang out together can treat as bestie at that time. I really thankful that I able to make such a good friend by that time. Unfortunately, everything change as time flies. They all start to ignore me and just treat me like a stranger, no is worsen if i use 'stranger'. Sometimes I feel like they boycott me.
Now this feeling come back but not in school is in my company, this person firstly so friendly to me but now like a stranger. She didn't respond although I talking to her.
Sometimes, I just thinking is it really my PROBLEM? Why every time also like this. Is it I had done something irritated her?
I really want to leave this place and going back to the place that familiar with.
Now I a kind lost my direction I didn't even know what I want to do. Leave this place go home or just look for another company as now the currency rate is so attractive.
"Life is just like a drama" an old quote from one of the drama I had watched if I not mistaken. It sometimes will be smooth and tough this words I had listen for dozens of time but I still couldn't let it go perhaps.
I thought I will stop updating my blog again but after all I still come back here cos I think this is the best place I can express my sadness, worries, frustration and all my negative feeling. Most people will choose to express their feeling in other social media platform Facebook etc. Until today I still does not want to post such a negative aura on my Facebook (maybe I added too many friends and family especially people that I stay with)
There's a feeling that came before back to year 2010 during my college life, when I plan to finish my diploma course alone without making any friends in the campus but I still able to make some friends. These 'friends' firstly treat me very good we learn, eat, hang out together can treat as bestie at that time. I really thankful that I able to make such a good friend by that time. Unfortunately, everything change as time flies. They all start to ignore me and just treat me like a stranger, no is worsen if i use 'stranger'. Sometimes I feel like they boycott me.
Now this feeling come back but not in school is in my company, this person firstly so friendly to me but now like a stranger. She didn't respond although I talking to her.
Sometimes, I just thinking is it really my PROBLEM? Why every time also like this. Is it I had done something irritated her?
I really want to leave this place and going back to the place that familiar with.
Now I a kind lost my direction I didn't even know what I want to do. Leave this place go home or just look for another company as now the currency rate is so attractive.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
A Sad birthday
People say.... 21th birthday is a greatest birthday in the life but for is a saddest birthday since i waas borned...
Maybe it is because of my high expectation and turned up to be a higher disappointment...
A month before my birthday a lot of my friend even though my parents said that they had prepared for my
birthday. Some of them even said that they will find my lovely present for me. At that moment i really touched. My heart say, "wow, wat a great birthday i had.... my parents will give a present that i never thoought i will received it". Finally reached my birthday, that day i was working because it is a monday. I did not told my colleague that day was my birthday so nobody knows that days is my birthday. As usual received a lots of birthday wishes from all my friend posted on fb or sms. Really thanks them and appreciated. However, i found out that normally 和我称兄道弟的朋友 do not have any reaction. That time i am telling myself that maybe they got plan to do give such a 'suprise' . However, once again my expectation turns out to be nothing but what can i do all this is depend on them i cant force them to give me present or celebrate with me. So that night i dinner with my mum with a half happy mood. Not only my friend even though my dad also forgot my birthday... That week really 夸张 each time when i saw a birthday post of my friend on fb my tears straight away fell down... Long time didnt have such a feeling already, maybe this few years my friends treat me too good already so i not use to it. The saddest things is not i blame my friend or my parents didnt celebrate with or didnt give me present, is they promise me and at the end i got nothing... and normally i very care that person but maybe me is nothing for them. Is it should be like this? I know this world is doesn't mean u treat a person good he/ she must treat u good also but this is a kind feeling that i can't speak to anyone... A kind of feeling that 真心换来绝情....
But at here i must explain to those who read my blog(in case my friend had read it) i post this out is not because want to blame anyone is just a path that can let me express my feeling.
Recently got a issue happened. 1 of my friend suddenly 避开我. i also not not sure is it a correct guess. This is because when i go the place my friend should be there at the same time my friend will absent and same at the other way... It is have any misunderstanding between us? Maybe my friend's parents think the wrong side and prohibit my friend contact with me. Not only friend although is his/her patners also like this when his/her parents does not like it the relationship will end very fast If my friend did not explain to his/her parents and choose give up me(this friend) and not his/her patners, i should tell his/her parents " Aunty, uncle just because of your misunderstand your child and i 朋友都做不成，将来你的孩子业很难找到伴侣...
My friend also haiz.... if u know there is a misunderstand please explain to them la....
Maybe it is because of my high expectation and turned up to be a higher disappointment...
A month before my birthday a lot of my friend even though my parents said that they had prepared for my
birthday. Some of them even said that they will find my lovely present for me. At that moment i really touched. My heart say, "wow, wat a great birthday i had.... my parents will give a present that i never thoought i will received it". Finally reached my birthday, that day i was working because it is a monday. I did not told my colleague that day was my birthday so nobody knows that days is my birthday. As usual received a lots of birthday wishes from all my friend posted on fb or sms. Really thanks them and appreciated. However, i found out that normally 和我称兄道弟的朋友 do not have any reaction. That time i am telling myself that maybe they got plan to do give such a 'suprise' . However, once again my expectation turns out to be nothing but what can i do all this is depend on them i cant force them to give me present or celebrate with me. So that night i dinner with my mum with a half happy mood. Not only my friend even though my dad also forgot my birthday... That week really 夸张 each time when i saw a birthday post of my friend on fb my tears straight away fell down... Long time didnt have such a feeling already, maybe this few years my friends treat me too good already so i not use to it. The saddest things is not i blame my friend or my parents didnt celebrate with or didnt give me present, is they promise me and at the end i got nothing... and normally i very care that person but maybe me is nothing for them. Is it should be like this? I know this world is doesn't mean u treat a person good he/ she must treat u good also but this is a kind feeling that i can't speak to anyone... A kind of feeling that 真心换来绝情....
But at here i must explain to those who read my blog(in case my friend had read it) i post this out is not because want to blame anyone is just a path that can let me express my feeling.
Recently got a issue happened. 1 of my friend suddenly 避开我. i also not not sure is it a correct guess. This is because when i go the place my friend should be there at the same time my friend will absent and same at the other way... It is have any misunderstanding between us? Maybe my friend's parents think the wrong side and prohibit my friend contact with me. Not only friend although is his/her patners also like this when his/her parents does not like it the relationship will end very fast If my friend did not explain to his/her parents and choose give up me(this friend) and not his/her patners, i should tell his/her parents " Aunty, uncle just because of your misunderstand your child and i 朋友都做不成，将来你的孩子业很难找到伴侣...
My friend also haiz.... if u know there is a misunderstand please explain to them la....
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
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