People say.... 21th birthday is a greatest birthday in the life but for is a saddest birthday since i waas borned...
Maybe it is because of my high expectation and turned up to be a higher disappointment...
A month before my birthday a lot of my friend even though my parents said that they had prepared for my
birthday. Some of them even said that they will find my lovely present for me. At that moment i really touched. My heart say, "wow, wat a great birthday i had.... my parents will give a present that i never thoought i will received it". Finally reached my birthday, that day i was working because it is a monday. I did not told my colleague that day was my birthday so nobody knows that days is my birthday. As usual received a lots of birthday wishes from all my friend posted on fb or sms. Really thanks them and appreciated. However, i found out that normally 和我称兄道弟的朋友 do not have any reaction. That time i am telling myself that maybe they got plan to do give such a 'suprise' . However, once again my expectation turns out to be nothing but what can i do all this is depend on them i cant force them to give me present or celebrate with me. So that night i dinner with my mum with a half happy mood. Not only my friend even though my dad also forgot my birthday... That week really 夸张 each time when i saw a birthday post of my friend on fb my tears straight away fell down... Long time didnt have such a feeling already, maybe this few years my friends treat me too good already so i not use to it. The saddest things is not i blame my friend or my parents didnt celebrate with or didnt give me present, is they promise me and at the end i got nothing... and normally i very care that person but maybe me is nothing for them. Is it should be like this? I know this world is doesn't mean u treat a person good he/ she must treat u good also but this is a kind feeling that i can't speak to anyone... A kind of feeling that 真心换来绝情....
But at here i must explain to those who read my blog(in case my friend had read it) i post this out is not because want to blame anyone is just a path that can let me express my feeling.
Recently got a issue happened. 1 of my friend suddenly 避开我. i also not not sure is it a correct guess. This is because when i go the place my friend should be there at the same time my friend will absent and same at the other way... It is have any misunderstanding between us? Maybe my friend's parents think the wrong side and prohibit my friend contact with me. Not only friend although is his/her patners also like this when his/her parents does not like it the relationship will end very fast If my friend did not explain to his/her parents and choose give up me(this friend) and not his/her patners, i should tell his/her parents " Aunty, uncle just because of your misunderstand your child and i 朋友都做不成，将来你的孩子业很难找到伴侣...
My friend also haiz.... if u know there is a misunderstand please explain to them la....
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Thursday, January 12, 2012
Review of year 2011
Quite a long time i did not updated my blog, maybe i was too lazy to updated it or i don't want someone get to knew something...
Jan- still suffer for my college problem, classmates, coursework, test. Celebrate the
the 1st day of 2011 hang out wif frenz...
Feb- Working wif double paid at the 2nd of CNY, visit relatives at CNY(since i did'n do
for many years). Realized he had changed~ less communicate wif him.
Mar- still suffer for college things, final exam around the corner. Still going out
study for exam. Starting finding a new job.
Apr- Finally after exam, successfully found a new job. Meet new supervisor, new
colleague, new environment.
May- As usual wesak day, they all came back. spend all days at temple. Middle of May,
a huge changed happened at my workplace, all of my colleague resign and left me
behind. Very emo at that period..
Jun- After failing resign, successful go through that period and learning a lot at
that time. College had reopen almost a month but i still absent many lectures.
Phone being snatched by 2 malay guys... i hate them...
Jul- Congrates to my beloved Captain PY, she got married at 230711 with her husband.
Attending her wedding party at St Gabriel Church. I was so happy at that day
coz i really god will bless their marriage will happy and last forever. At that
day i oso had an opportunity to gather with my old friends but at the same
moment i felt quite sad coz i not be able to celebrate a big day with him. The
1st year i didnt go through with him after 3 years continuous.
Aug- Sem 4 final is around the corner but i still no feel to revise my subjects.
Quite emo at my workplace coz all of them are too lazy. Luckily got someone help
me for my end month report, really thanks him. Not able to join them for their
outing due to my job.
Sept- Finally resigned and starting my examination. Starting finding new job but
failed to do so. Always alone for movie, shopping and most of the things.
Oct- Alone oso for my birthday, nobody wan to date me, so lonely... Unable to
received birthday wishes from him, quite sad. Working for my old company with
the same paid. Finally having outing with them and celebrate my bro's birthday
quite happy at that days...
Nov- 1st time being 'zhi mui' of my fren sister, quite a interesting experience.
The 2nd wedding party attended. Attended my bro's registration of marriage at
JB on 111111. 1st time being a camera man at there. The 3rd wedding ceremony i
had attended.
Dec- Getting a quite low marks in the cw make me felt so sad. This semester i had
absent a lot of class and almost being barred form exam. Attended my uncle's
wedding at JB and spend almost a week with my uncles and aunties. Felt so happy
and excited. Spending the last day of 2011 with my best friends at Sepang Gold
Coast. Although the last minutes plan and having quite a lot of adventures but
i felt very happy at that moment. Thank you both of you give a special new year
eve.
In this year i had promise myself to let him go unfortunately i cant. I oso can't figure it out why?? This year too many things of him make my tear flew down from my eyes. All of us had known he had changed but why i still thinking bout him? Ihad try many ways to 4get him(remove all the post by him, did not get bac his contact, try not communicate with him) but i still cant 4get him. Every time he had hurt us i still 4give him but i feel so sad.
Jan- still suffer for my college problem, classmates, coursework, test. Celebrate the
the 1st day of 2011 hang out wif frenz...
Feb- Working wif double paid at the 2nd of CNY, visit relatives at CNY(since i did'n do
for many years). Realized he had changed~ less communicate wif him.
Mar- still suffer for college things, final exam around the corner. Still going out
study for exam. Starting finding a new job.
Apr- Finally after exam, successfully found a new job. Meet new supervisor, new
colleague, new environment.
May- As usual wesak day, they all came back. spend all days at temple. Middle of May,
a huge changed happened at my workplace, all of my colleague resign and left me
behind. Very emo at that period..
Jun- After failing resign, successful go through that period and learning a lot at
that time. College had reopen almost a month but i still absent many lectures.
Phone being snatched by 2 malay guys... i hate them...
Jul- Congrates to my beloved Captain PY, she got married at 230711 with her husband.
Attending her wedding party at St Gabriel Church. I was so happy at that day
coz i really god will bless their marriage will happy and last forever. At that
day i oso had an opportunity to gather with my old friends but at the same
moment i felt quite sad coz i not be able to celebrate a big day with him. The
1st year i didnt go through with him after 3 years continuous.
Aug- Sem 4 final is around the corner but i still no feel to revise my subjects.
Quite emo at my workplace coz all of them are too lazy. Luckily got someone help
me for my end month report, really thanks him. Not able to join them for their
outing due to my job.
Sept- Finally resigned and starting my examination. Starting finding new job but
failed to do so. Always alone for movie, shopping and most of the things.
Oct- Alone oso for my birthday, nobody wan to date me, so lonely... Unable to
received birthday wishes from him, quite sad. Working for my old company with
the same paid. Finally having outing with them and celebrate my bro's birthday
quite happy at that days...
Nov- 1st time being 'zhi mui' of my fren sister, quite a interesting experience.
The 2nd wedding party attended. Attended my bro's registration of marriage at
JB on 111111. 1st time being a camera man at there. The 3rd wedding ceremony i
had attended.
Dec- Getting a quite low marks in the cw make me felt so sad. This semester i had
absent a lot of class and almost being barred form exam. Attended my uncle's
wedding at JB and spend almost a week with my uncles and aunties. Felt so happy
and excited. Spending the last day of 2011 with my best friends at Sepang Gold
Coast. Although the last minutes plan and having quite a lot of adventures but
i felt very happy at that moment. Thank you both of you give a special new year
eve.
In this year i had promise myself to let him go unfortunately i cant. I oso can't figure it out why?? This year too many things of him make my tear flew down from my eyes. All of us had known he had changed but why i still thinking bout him? Ihad try many ways to 4get him(remove all the post by him, did not get bac his contact, try not communicate with him) but i still cant 4get him. Every time he had hurt us i still 4give him but i feel so sad.
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