Friday, May 27, 2011

should i give up?

tis week my emo really not very good lo....
changing my job from a waitress to a retail assistant, really not really use to it but after a month of trying to work it out finally i accept it. But tis time a huge changes happen to my company. Another video company had take over it so management had changed, just happened in a sudden. Now only left me and another guy from other branch 2 new part timer. After the new management come i really cant accept it, but wat to do try my best lo. Since my supervisor leave to another branch i had decide transfer to there coz wan stick with him coz got some safety feeling. However, i received a news that he will resigned and those new management ppl will take over control officially. Therefore my 'resign feel' more stronger since i wanted to resigned starting from the 2 part timer resignation time. i pursue myself to stay and try to use to it but now no one tht i can 'hold' and now feel very unsafe. i think before since i work at here i give ppl bully and i work at there oso cant accept the way they work so i choose resign la. tis week my emotion really disturbed by this issue plus my college issue. Tht issue is still not solved yet, therefore i feel very tension and stress tis week.
However, 2day my supervisor had pursue me to stay coz when i give him my resign letter he ask wat reason make me wanted to resign, i just honestly tell him tht i feel very unsafe coz av1 oso leave me (since i oso being leave behind therefore i very scare to tht feeling)and also i cant accept the way the new management do, i had try to accept it but i cant so i choose to resign. After listen to my reason he said he cant accept my reason coz avwhere work also got stress and tension so cant becoz of this i resign and also i still young and work a job for a month then resign is not good for my resume. So, he tell me to think carefully before make any decision. Actually before he chat with me i really want to resign but after he said these things, he make me shaking a bit.... but my mood still cannot recover back.....
At this moment i really need a person i can ask him/her advice or just speak out my conflict and problems but no one can help me at this moment... Sometimes i feel i'm very useless, i say i being forced to study and i wanted to work rather than study but now i want to resigned both things i oso dun wan then wat i want????
But this moment i still dun brave enough to do something silly....
i hope i remain afraid to do something silly....

3 comments:

: : 3m0 XanDer GurL : : said...

hehe.. soh poh.. tried 2 use a positive attitude 2 face ur conflicts.. nothing is impossible.. u noe wat ma?? i ald change many jobs lu.. now is my fourth wan.. yet i stil wanna change..


when i change jor job i go find u yum cha ar.. coz now i can off on weekday ony er.. T-T

ANGL3S & dEviLS said...

i try my best, coz dun noe since when my negative thinking had cover my positive thinking... so sienzzzz

u change wat job o?
when is ur off?

zeane said...

like u say work whr oso got stress de la...when u successfully overcome it, u r another person after tat...try to stay positive although it is hard...