am i changing?

my new life finally starts...
2day is my 1st day of my lecture class, so far so good no special feeling. But got something tht i still havent accustomed to it. When ever i go to my college, i need to take three types of public transport starline, putra lrt and bus... everytime doing the same thing make feel a bit 'sienz' and tarc always full of human being no matter at what place. So until 2day after a week at been there i only having my lunch at their canteen twice. Sometimes i rather stay hungry than going to the canteen. Is it i have change? Now i not really like crowded place and noise. Maybe i still not really mix well inside the college. But still got some happy thing tht i knew some new friends, 1 from seremban, 1 from kemaman n 1 from malacca. So now my lifestlye is college, college n work....

Still the same person but this time he seems like slimmer. Maybe got alot of pressure but is a good thing also coz can keep fit ma... haha...
But the feeling seems like changing he looks like have alot of problems although last time he also like tht but he seems like hiding himself from me. I also don't know why i have such of thinking but tht time he chat with on the phone i still very nervous and waiting for the next words he want to say but i know this is not right and i try to cover my feeling. But i very afraid tht something will happen on him coz his house got some 'unfirendly' thing inside his room. So i scare something bad will happen to him. May god bless him. Everytime this feeling appears in my heart i will always tell myself let it go but i just can't do tht. why i so 'fan jin' I hate myself from loving you....