22/2/2009

Today i very bad luck,when went to work i got a feel that today i will break glasses at my shop. Is really come true. Today when i deliver a tray of drinks from bar to upstairs with my dinner an accident happened. When i walked to upstairs is already imbalance the drinks once i reach the table i put down the tray a sound 'plang' all of the drinks fall down and i stunted. Luckily one of my colleague came to help me. That time my mind was blank and my captain and my colleague was helping me too. I can't remember how many glasses that i break. That time i really want to cry out but i can hold my tear from falling and my mood was absolutely down. Then the bar captain coming upstairs and confirm with me the amount of glasses that i break. He tell me that i need to pay RM60 something. OH MY GOD!!!!!RM60 my three days salary. Then one of my colleague tell me that i didnt break so many glasses because he got help me take some of glasses to the bar for washing and redoing proccess. Haiz....... How could this happened?
Then when after my work i go home and online as usual i got chat with him. Suddenly i got a thinking that i want to tell him my feeling, then i tell him that i love him before. Once i tell him that means i not love him anymore, because if i still love him i won't tell him and keep this feeling in my heart. After telling him i feel myself free and don't have that not comfortable feeling. Maybe this is a good solution for me. He will always is my 'hou heng dai'.....