i hate this feeling

very sien de lo,
actually when the 1st of my college i din plan to know any friends since i din know anyone at there but in an opportunity i have knew my coursemate....
At beginning i feel very fan because one of them too depending on me always follow me whatever co-co i take, group that i take she also wan to follow....
Then, reach sem 2, at beginning having a good relationship with them but until half of the semester, after an incident happened all things had changed.... Sometimes i have a feeling that all of them always boikot me since i have to work after the class, always absent for class, din do my tutorial question but since u all dun wan me then why wan friend with at the beginning?
After i have that friends feeling now only dun wan me?
I have try my best to work our friendship but wat i get?
一次又一次的伤心？
一次又一次的被离弃和遗忘？
actually i wanna ask them did i did something wrong until u all threat me like this?
Sometimes, i got think is it i think too much?
but the words the post on fb and the way thing they communicate make me think like this....(actually i willing to close my fb account i saw thing that make me sad but i cant coz my class reps will post many thing through fb and my other friends oso communicate through fb)
i cant mix with them, on the topic they talk about coz i dun know wat are they talking about......

What should i do?
should i give up to work on this friendship?
or should i stay away from them?
do not mix with them anymore?
in this situation i feel very tired, until now i have no energy to continue it.
Sometimes, they will let me join, or join me in but Sometimes they will leave me alone and din care about me.....
Actually inside their heart do they have a place for me as a friend?

再一次

我知道你不爱我，
但你不能阻止我爱你，
我也明白我不能拥有你，
也只能在远方默默地祝福你，为你祈祷，
你可以不爱我，
可是也不要把我推给别人
你已经不知觉的伤害了我～
我的心又再一次受伤了～

误会

也许我应该用我们缺乏沟通来做一个开场白。当那天我听说你要离开我们时，我瞬间停屯了。我脑海一片空白然而我的眼泪无法控制的往下流，我又再次为你哭了。大哭了一场我以我可以很坚强的放下你，我很努力的尝试可是我办不到。那段时间我真的是度日如年。为了这件事我哭了五次，有一个晚上我一直无法入睡。我崩溃的哭了～我也觉得我自己很傻
但是我心里一直不相信他是这样的人，在一个晚上我终于忍不住，打电话问个明白。。。
他也跟我解释清楚了，原来是一场误会。。。。
但是从这件事我发觉到他在我心中占居了一个很重要的位置。。。。