已经有三个月对你不闻不问，可是到最后。。。咳～
说好了要放下，可是我还忍不住偷看了他的境况～
看了那套戏让我回想起我的故事，但我很清楚我的结局和电影的结局不会是一样。。。
为什么你要和他用同一张照片呢？
偷看了你的～ 让我更加了解你。。。
原来你一点都不快了，那又怎样？
我帮不了你，或许你不让别人帮～
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
颓废的我
曾几何时，我已不是我。我也越来越不了解自己，我到底要些什么呢？我开始变得很懒散，颓废，整天无所事事。还蛮讨厌现在的我。我说我没兴趣读书，但我也承诺我会完成我的学业可是考试快到了但我却什么都还没开始。是我不想开始？还是懒惰开始？我也不清楚～
对于工作方面，我也开始变了～
一位某种原因我开始对于这份工失去了那份热情，多了些抱怨。我对于新的上司和新的工作伙伴，也没有什么好感。
这几天我没上学也没做工，只是呆在家睡了一整天。
什么也没做～～～
无奈～～～
对于工作方面，我也开始变了～
一位某种原因我开始对于这份工失去了那份热情，多了些抱怨。我对于新的上司和新的工作伙伴，也没有什么好感。
这几天我没上学也没做工，只是呆在家睡了一整天。
什么也没做～～～
无奈～～～
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
should i give up?
tis week my emo really not very good lo....
changing my job from a waitress to a retail assistant, really not really use to it but after a month of trying to work it out finally i accept it. But tis time a huge changes happen to my company. Another video company had take over it so management had changed, just happened in a sudden. Now only left me and another guy from other branch 2 new part timer. After the new management come i really cant accept it, but wat to do try my best lo. Since my supervisor leave to another branch i had decide transfer to there coz wan stick with him coz got some safety feeling. However, i received a news that he will resigned and those new management ppl will take over control officially. Therefore my 'resign feel' more stronger since i wanted to resigned starting from the 2 part timer resignation time. i pursue myself to stay and try to use to it but now no one tht i can 'hold' and now feel very unsafe. i think before since i work at here i give ppl bully and i work at there oso cant accept the way they work so i choose resign la. tis week my emotion really disturbed by this issue plus my college issue. Tht issue is still not solved yet, therefore i feel very tension and stress tis week.
However, 2day my supervisor had pursue me to stay coz when i give him my resign letter he ask wat reason make me wanted to resign, i just honestly tell him tht i feel very unsafe coz av1 oso leave me (since i oso being leave behind therefore i very scare to tht feeling)and also i cant accept the way the new management do, i had try to accept it but i cant so i choose to resign. After listen to my reason he said he cant accept my reason coz avwhere work also got stress and tension so cant becoz of this i resign and also i still young and work a job for a month then resign is not good for my resume. So, he tell me to think carefully before make any decision. Actually before he chat with me i really want to resign but after he said these things, he make me shaking a bit.... but my mood still cannot recover back.....
At this moment i really need a person i can ask him/her advice or just speak out my conflict and problems but no one can help me at this moment... Sometimes i feel i'm very useless, i say i being forced to study and i wanted to work rather than study but now i want to resigned both things i oso dun wan then wat i want????
But this moment i still dun brave enough to do something silly....
i hope i remain afraid to do something silly....
changing my job from a waitress to a retail assistant, really not really use to it but after a month of trying to work it out finally i accept it. But tis time a huge changes happen to my company. Another video company had take over it so management had changed, just happened in a sudden. Now only left me and another guy from other branch 2 new part timer. After the new management come i really cant accept it, but wat to do try my best lo. Since my supervisor leave to another branch i had decide transfer to there coz wan stick with him coz got some safety feeling. However, i received a news that he will resigned and those new management ppl will take over control officially. Therefore my 'resign feel' more stronger since i wanted to resigned starting from the 2 part timer resignation time. i pursue myself to stay and try to use to it but now no one tht i can 'hold' and now feel very unsafe. i think before since i work at here i give ppl bully and i work at there oso cant accept the way they work so i choose resign la. tis week my emotion really disturbed by this issue plus my college issue. Tht issue is still not solved yet, therefore i feel very tension and stress tis week.
However, 2day my supervisor had pursue me to stay coz when i give him my resign letter he ask wat reason make me wanted to resign, i just honestly tell him tht i feel very unsafe coz av1 oso leave me (since i oso being leave behind therefore i very scare to tht feeling)and also i cant accept the way the new management do, i had try to accept it but i cant so i choose to resign. After listen to my reason he said he cant accept my reason coz avwhere work also got stress and tension so cant becoz of this i resign and also i still young and work a job for a month then resign is not good for my resume. So, he tell me to think carefully before make any decision. Actually before he chat with me i really want to resign but after he said these things, he make me shaking a bit.... but my mood still cannot recover back.....
At this moment i really need a person i can ask him/her advice or just speak out my conflict and problems but no one can help me at this moment... Sometimes i feel i'm very useless, i say i being forced to study and i wanted to work rather than study but now i want to resigned both things i oso dun wan then wat i want????
But this moment i still dun brave enough to do something silly....
i hope i remain afraid to do something silly....
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
i hate this feeling
very sien de lo,
actually when the 1st of my college i din plan to know any friends since i din know anyone at there but in an opportunity i have knew my coursemate....
At beginning i feel very fan because one of them too depending on me always follow me whatever co-co i take, group that i take she also wan to follow....
Then, reach sem 2, at beginning having a good relationship with them but until half of the semester, after an incident happened all things had changed.... Sometimes i have a feeling that all of them always boikot me since i have to work after the class, always absent for class, din do my tutorial question but since u all dun wan me then why wan friend with at the beginning?
After i have that friends feeling now only dun wan me?
I have try my best to work our friendship but wat i get?
一次又一次的伤心？
一次又一次的被离弃和遗忘？
actually i wanna ask them did i did something wrong until u all threat me like this?
Sometimes, i got think is it i think too much?
but the words the post on fb and the way thing they communicate make me think like this....(actually i willing to close my fb account i saw thing that make me sad but i cant coz my class reps will post many thing through fb and my other friends oso communicate through fb)
i cant mix with them, on the topic they talk about coz i dun know wat are they talking about......
What should i do?
should i give up to work on this friendship?
or should i stay away from them?
do not mix with them anymore?
in this situation i feel very tired, until now i have no energy to continue it.
Sometimes, they will let me join, or join me in but Sometimes they will leave me alone and din care about me.....
Actually inside their heart do they have a place for me as a friend?
actually when the 1st of my college i din plan to know any friends since i din know anyone at there but in an opportunity i have knew my coursemate....
At beginning i feel very fan because one of them too depending on me always follow me whatever co-co i take, group that i take she also wan to follow....
Then, reach sem 2, at beginning having a good relationship with them but until half of the semester, after an incident happened all things had changed.... Sometimes i have a feeling that all of them always boikot me since i have to work after the class, always absent for class, din do my tutorial question but since u all dun wan me then why wan friend with at the beginning?
After i have that friends feeling now only dun wan me?
I have try my best to work our friendship but wat i get?
一次又一次的伤心？
一次又一次的被离弃和遗忘？
actually i wanna ask them did i did something wrong until u all threat me like this?
Sometimes, i got think is it i think too much?
but the words the post on fb and the way thing they communicate make me think like this....(actually i willing to close my fb account i saw thing that make me sad but i cant coz my class reps will post many thing through fb and my other friends oso communicate through fb)
i cant mix with them, on the topic they talk about coz i dun know wat are they talking about......
What should i do?
should i give up to work on this friendship?
or should i stay away from them?
do not mix with them anymore?
in this situation i feel very tired, until now i have no energy to continue it.
Sometimes, they will let me join, or join me in but Sometimes they will leave me alone and din care about me.....
Actually inside their heart do they have a place for me as a friend?
Friday, January 14, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
误会
也许我应该用我们缺乏沟通来做一个开场白。当那天我听说你要离开我们时，我瞬间停屯了。我脑海一片空白然而我的眼泪无法控制的往下流，我又再次为你哭了。大哭了一场我以我可以很坚强的放下你，我很努力的尝试可是我办不到。那段时间我真的是度日如年。为了这件事我哭了五次，有一个晚上我一直无法入睡。我崩溃的哭了～我也觉得我自己很傻
但是我心里一直不相信他是这样的人，在一个晚上我终于忍不住，打电话问个明白。。。
他也跟我解释清楚了，原来是一场误会。。。。
但是从这件事我发觉到他在我心中占居了一个很重要的位置。。。。
但是我心里一直不相信他是这样的人，在一个晚上我终于忍不住，打电话问个明白。。。
他也跟我解释清楚了，原来是一场误会。。。。
但是从这件事我发觉到他在我心中占居了一个很重要的位置。。。。
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